Definition of FABULATION
: the act of inventing or relating false or fantastic tales
This word has been eating away at me lately. Can't say exactly why it bothers me so much. I think it cuts in deep because I truly believe, down to my core in things that could be considered fantastic by others... actually much more than that; awe inspiring, cause for laying flat on the floor, wonder filled, wide eyes beautiful things. And then someone came along and said...that's cute, I'll call it fabulation. Not that I met the man...he wrote it down and I met that instead.
I don't like it-the feeling it left.
I'm not coping or running away from reality by way of fabulation.
As a matter of fact, I'm facing what I see and feel head on, using every mental capacity I have at my disposal. There are things in life that change you forever-and should change you. I've held a newborn son in my arms and watched his eyes dilate and focus on me. Sure you can say I was under the influence of medication... or say that I was emotional even hormonal...say that I was taken in by the event...say that I fabulated the feeling that God was there as a new life was made known. But I say, something real happened and when real things happen, you can label it and walk away...or you can face it and decide what you believe. I think the latter is harder to do-not the easy way out. How is it, that a baby, minutes old, could look toward a familiar voice and try to focus on a face? I'm not asking how this response evolved over millions of years...How did a perfect ear, filled with tiny moving parts pick up sound; perfect mechanically designed eyes take in a shape? I need a better answer than millions of years and no God after looking at that little face.
I don't have to invent the fantastic tale...becuase it's being told by a being far beyond my little story. And as far as being false...well... whether we choose to believe or not is a belief in it's self.