I feel very warm sitting in a coffee shop, a mellow Christmas song playing in the background; I feel warmer than I probably am though because I just came in out of a cold rain and 37 degree night. It takes cold to feel heat. My dad will have surgery in the morning to remove a mass from his pancreas. I think many of you reading may have already heard and are praying for him, thank you. I have felt a warmth and safety through this past week because of how my dad has handled everything thus far. I'm sure he's thought all the normal things and felt all the dark emotions that come with cancer, but he has shown me what the love of a father really is. The only time I've seen him show fear is when he thinks of his responsibility to others. He wants to be here for mom, for his church, for his family, for Mia who has only had a dad for a year, for his colleagues. For that, I thank him. On Sunday the verse "Jesus wept" was read and I have a new layer over that verse now. God wants to be here for us. He wants to come through. It's like dad knowing he could be here, could care for us and continue to love us how we need to be-it may be impossible-we may be separated-such a desperate feeling.
Daddy, I know you'll give it everything you've got tomorrow and in the months to follow. Thank you for showing me the loving father part of God that weeps at being separated from his children.
Please pray that dad will continue to feel a spirit of encouragement
Please pray that he will glorify God
Please pray that we as his family have wisdom to support him as he has need in the right way
Please pray for the power of healing for however many years God wills dad